crackin

sike. haha im blogging at a party right meow haahhaahaha

crackin

sike. haha im blogging at a party right meow haahhaahaha

you made it out alive

"oh what a relief.

i'd love the shape that your faces make,
you never really know
what you cant really see"


from all to nothing. "nice guys finish last" and im sorry i support that. my emotions have taken over my life and i cant help but feel more stupid everyday.

so theres the boy whos always there no matter what. no matter what i tell him he sticks around just PRAYING that il change my mind and come back to him. im sure every sentence that comes out of my mouth is a bullet to his heart. and yet he still believes that im the one and all i do is shun him away. fuck you melody!

and then theres this boy who is an asshole and he is the one that i cant stop thinking about.

and then theres a boy whos heart i broke thinking that it was okay.


i hate this.
i cant believe im being a real bitch.

mark ass trick ass bitch ass niggas.

like kanye west.




sup at these short ass bloggs? haha mind as well twitter this shit riight? maybe if my life wasnt so lame i would have more to talk about... my baddd dogggg

estupido.

"you know the end of the story.. is that il always love you girl."

greater cause

lwd bound. hahaha i know right?

why we cry at movies

question 1 of 510, and im blogging right now.

what's happened? i went from being all kiiindds of happy to this?!

"its strange how it goes
and nobody knows
you're not alive.."

playing a mans game with a girl mentality.

fresh to deffff.

wthell. im still awake!
got stood up today,
while breaking up with someone.

what a stupid ending to what could have been a great weekend.

omg im lame

i so sorry havent been here for soo long
i wanna say im working hard
but i seem to NOT use free time to my advantage
i hope il learn one day

i wanna move to arizona!
and thers my 30 second blog

shellfish?

fuck thursdays! i swear school is designed to make sure i dont go out anymore but on a serious note im i asking for too much to when i ask for help? like im trying soooooo gdamn hard to graduate on top.. its discussing. maintain strait As is no joke, and hopefully i havent screwed up anywhere yet. 3 to 4 hours of sleep a night = max of 20 hours in 5 days, arent u suppose to get that in like 3 days? UGH i feel like im hitting emotional blockage and i really dont wanna sit there in class tomorrow thinking about why i couldnt get this problem. is it because i was too busy being a bitch about my emotions. when im not hear you beg me to come knowing that i have way more on my plate than ive ever had and you dont even wanna help me clear some of it :(

back to studying. this really cleared my mind

lakoston

its almost to a point where i dont give a shit who tells me im not fat because i will always believe i am. my boyfriend just semi called me fat and he probably didnt mean to hurt my feelings and at the same time he really probably didnt mean it in the first place. i can totally make myself stop eating but i know its not good and therefore i dont do it and dieting is just insane because its long and hard and requires doin work. food is soo good. i seriously blame it on the alcohol SIKE haha i blame it on the BC. i swear my entire life till i started BC i was trying so hard to gain weight. and now im fat and ugly :[ thanks

silly hoe

hi remember me, my bad for the once a month blog or-deal HAHA

v-day was niooce.
caught up with school
dont really know what more to say
but im glad to be where i am


kinda sorta

baq

started school and holy fuck its a handfull. i quit my job and im moving back home with mi mardre. haha FUCK rent. im seriously gonna miss having my own place but mann i really need to graduate. party soon?! YEAHH son.

i love school. its so much better than working. hopefully when i do move out again il have a place of my very own with my significant other for ME to decorate MYSELF allllll miiiine. having roommates is a drag no offense to any that have shared a place with me buttt fuckk i've reached that point where i dont wanna share a place anymore.

in the last couple of weeks i feel like im once again searching to find me. i hate losing my identity its always a huge stress to try and get it back. but when your down your down.

il be here on and off. hopefully one more than the other. LAAAATTTTEEE.

happy new years.

my bad for not updating burrrb.