man this weekend is INSANE :]
in a very good way of course
& its still not even over. oh so i got to go paintballing con mauiwowi. twas great. then my xbox got OWNED by the stupid ring of fire. and i've made it a goal to stop cursing. won poker on randy azimizz birthday heard good news from joshua snee and im looking forward to seeing keeev tomorrow.
hi my names melody,
& i was just wondering if you would like to go out sometime? maybe catch a movie or get some coffee, im not complicated. or maybe we can go to my place, just spend some time. then we can go on more dates or we can get together and have a loving serious relationship; maybe get married and buy a home. someday have two kids, one boy and one girl. grow old together and look back and our lives with no complaint.
so how about that coffee?
im gonna make this as LITERAL as possible so your dumbass can understand because i KNOW you are so concerned about my life. awwh how cute you still care.
+ so all these depressing boy blogs most of them aren't about you, they're about other retarded boys that came after you that were probably just as stupid as you are. therefore they needed to be cut out of my life just like you should have been.
+ i hate you. yes you are correct on that one. and its not because im not over you because i am COMPLETELY over you. i regret every single second of it. i just never thought there was a person as fake as you are out there. i knew it when we were together and i knew i should have just listened to my hunch. but my caring heart just kept trying to keep going because i am such a wholesome kind hearted person. i hate you because you tricked me into believing lies.
+ "but your on my profile 24/7" PLEASE DARNELL speak for YOURSELF. i KNOW your checking this shit out right now and your probably not going to make a response back in a blog and what not because your a huge pussy and you just wanna be "the bigger man" and because i stated that you wouldnt and you dont want me to be right.
+ "no life you have" whoa. um i dont even know where to begin elaborating that. i go to school i dont work at a lame pretzel stand im responsible and pretty much independent. and i probably have more units passed than you do. and where are you again?
+ your ex girlfriend, is the dumbest bitch i know. i could explain myself on this one but thats pretty much the whole picture. i guess you guys are met for each other; both are stupid, fake, and attention hungry. if only she knew all the shit you used to talk about her. myy god what would she think? haaa you dont have to be labeled as "in a relationship" to fuck them its SO obvious what is going on so why do you have to lie to people? like anyone actually gives a shit? are you like concerned about what im gonna think? cos really theirs no saving my opinion of you.
+ your completely UNREAL. you dont like anthony green and your probably just barely found out what an rx7 was. you dont even know the basics of a car. what are you trying to do? mold into what i like?
uhhhhhhhh so now you can go throw a pretend tantrum. go smoke some or punch a hole in the wall or something for the attention. i hope i catch you one day just to be able to break your face. let me know the businnatchh bitch. FUCKKK YOU :]
no bueno.
i wonder how many times i have to feel like this before i learn.
its kinda like that question "how many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop" & the answer is the world may never know.
people that visited my myspace or blog made it present. not just steal shit of my page use it in their blog like it was their very own life experiences or their words that they thought of.
FUCK YOU DARNELL GET OFF MY SACK.
i want a fairy tale romance just like every girl my age, i think no matter how much every girl denies wanting to be with someone in all actuality no girl wants to be alone. i do want someone, and it is only one. but without that one person i would not want anyone else and im speaking of this moment not like future tense or any bull crap. hahah i wish i could slut it up without thinking down upon myself LMAO. but there is one thing im sure im gonna try to keep my word on is getting married
best party ever. no doubt.
so i've learned a lot this weekend even being drunk as shit. ive learned that love is patient and anything good worth having is worth waiting for. ive learned that cutting people out of your life is the best way to do things. i am still trying to learn not to let others be in control of my emotions and also that being distracted is a quick fix to problems but its DEFIANTLY not the best way to do things. hooking up is fun and not slutty and no matter how dark i get i can still burn in the sun. so i guess now its back into school mode and what lies ahead cant be anything less than perfect because im in control.
this is the most patient i've ever been with anyone that has come into my life. i hate not having the upper hand but at the same time its like i dont even know where the hell i stand. all i know is that i gotta be something special, right? i hate how i always try to see the good in people when in reality it could be alllllll bad. i know just the little that he tells me and i believe it with caution. i guess only time will tell.
please save me from love.
problems, i got plenty. i dont even know where to start anymore. i have much on my plate and i just keep overloading. BLAH fuck the police.
back to the beginning, i hate how paranoid i get when i go out nowadays. i hate that theres a gun present everywhere and i hate how i havent gone anyplace where a fight hasnt broken out.
