shellfish?

fuck thursdays! i swear school is designed to make sure i dont go out anymore but on a serious note im i asking for too much to when i ask for help? like im trying soooooo gdamn hard to graduate on top.. its discussing. maintain strait As is no joke, and hopefully i havent screwed up anywhere yet. 3 to 4 hours of sleep a night = max of 20 hours in 5 days, arent u suppose to get that in like 3 days? UGH i feel like im hitting emotional blockage and i really dont wanna sit there in class tomorrow thinking about why i couldnt get this problem. is it because i was too busy being a bitch about my emotions. when im not hear you beg me to come knowing that i have way more on my plate than ive ever had and you dont even wanna help me clear some of it :(

back to studying. this really cleared my mind

lakoston

its almost to a point where i dont give a shit who tells me im not fat because i will always believe i am. my boyfriend just semi called me fat and he probably didnt mean to hurt my feelings and at the same time he really probably didnt mean it in the first place. i can totally make myself stop eating but i know its not good and therefore i dont do it and dieting is just insane because its long and hard and requires doin work. food is soo good. i seriously blame it on the alcohol SIKE haha i blame it on the BC. i swear my entire life till i started BC i was trying so hard to gain weight. and now im fat and ugly :[ thanks