juggle struggle

my emotions are outragous. they scare me.

i guess i'll just put this shit out here for everyone to know my "true" feelings; i'm very picky when it comes to men but i know i have every right to be. if i just picked the first fucker that came by i would be SCREWeD for the rest of my life. and i know i'm young but i've hit a point where i'd like a significant other.

my roommates call me a slut haha and i will admit that i "date" [whatever the fuck that suppose to mean nowadays] many people. i think everyone that finds me of interest should a least get a chance to know me. and of course its always the ones you don't like that fall head over heels for you. but if i REALLY like someone i definantly do not give in. i'm actually really shy around people i do like or think they are worth persuing. shit that sucks is that i WAY over analyze and that's what makes me fuck outta luck.

i could honestly be blindfolded and choose my next boyfriend. its alllllll about personality and that's what i want.

i haven't had a solid crush in a while, and a crush to me would be someone i want to pursue as of what i know about them now. i like the thrill of the chase but you really can't over do it.

i don't want to over analyze
i do want this to work out.

"hear me you."

and sorry for all the misspelled words.