let me grow

some bitches never learn.
im chill, im easy going, im wholesome.
i just want someone to return the favor

i am trying my hardest to be extremely mature about this situation. please dont let me down. i feel like im trying to mold myself into someone to fit them, not to try to impress but to grow and be on the same so call "level" as this person.

i wish i didnt spend so much time thinking and debating and just let it go. but i guess this is the only guard i have. i know, actually everybody knows, there is no avoiding love. the only protection you have is to end it before it starts. and im obviously not trying to do so.