shellfish?

fuck thursdays! i swear school is designed to make sure i dont go out anymore but on a serious note im i asking for too much to when i ask for help? like im trying soooooo gdamn hard to graduate on top.. its discussing. maintain strait As is no joke, and hopefully i havent screwed up anywhere yet. 3 to 4 hours of sleep a night = max of 20 hours in 5 days, arent u suppose to get that in like 3 days? UGH i feel like im hitting emotional blockage and i really dont wanna sit there in class tomorrow thinking about why i couldnt get this problem. is it because i was too busy being a bitch about my emotions. when im not hear you beg me to come knowing that i have way more on my plate than ive ever had and you dont even wanna help me clear some of it :(

back to studying. this really cleared my mind

lakoston

its almost to a point where i dont give a shit who tells me im not fat because i will always believe i am. my boyfriend just semi called me fat and he probably didnt mean to hurt my feelings and at the same time he really probably didnt mean it in the first place. i can totally make myself stop eating but i know its not good and therefore i dont do it and dieting is just insane because its long and hard and requires doin work. food is soo good. i seriously blame it on the alcohol SIKE haha i blame it on the BC. i swear my entire life till i started BC i was trying so hard to gain weight. and now im fat and ugly :[ thanks

silly hoe

hi remember me, my bad for the once a month blog or-deal HAHA

v-day was niooce.
caught up with school
dont really know what more to say
but im glad to be where i am


kinda sorta

baq

started school and holy fuck its a handfull. i quit my job and im moving back home with mi mardre. haha FUCK rent. im seriously gonna miss having my own place but mann i really need to graduate. party soon?! YEAHH son.

i love school. its so much better than working. hopefully when i do move out again il have a place of my very own with my significant other for ME to decorate MYSELF allllll miiiine. having roommates is a drag no offense to any that have shared a place with me buttt fuckk i've reached that point where i dont wanna share a place anymore.

in the last couple of weeks i feel like im once again searching to find me. i hate losing my identity its always a huge stress to try and get it back. but when your down your down.

il be here on and off. hopefully one more than the other. LAAAATTTTEEE.

happy new years.

my bad for not updating burrrb.

december26

i need sleep. forreallz

i have noooo idea why i've been like on pms mode for days. i'm not even on my period.

anywayss xmas was gewd. i seem to get less gifts as i age but itsallgood. haha it was sooo funny tho, i was at steezens fams and we got busted for pda. oppppps.

so i heard if you let a girl into the car first and she reaches over and unlocks the other side first she's a keeper. what if she locks you out after you unlock your own side just to be funny? what's that's suppose to symbolize? haha

poke her

of course i WOULD be the only person mad at someone and still make a scrapbook while being mad at them.. still.

idk i guess it opened my eyes, i totally lost my life for someone and that's what i didn't wanna do. i missed so many crazy events with my heffers and now when they remenice about it i'm so lost. i have no idea what they're talking about. i've become an outsider of the inside jokes.

super sad face

i caught up .. kinda. had a good night of poker and i'm looking forward? to the break. i need to not fall into this stupid hole that boys create. fuckkk that.