december26

i need sleep. forreallz

i have noooo idea why i've been like on pms mode for days. i'm not even on my period.

anywayss xmas was gewd. i seem to get less gifts as i age but itsallgood. haha it was sooo funny tho, i was at steezens fams and we got busted for pda. oppppps.

so i heard if you let a girl into the car first and she reaches over and unlocks the other side first she's a keeper. what if she locks you out after you unlock your own side just to be funny? what's that's suppose to symbolize? haha

poke her

of course i WOULD be the only person mad at someone and still make a scrapbook while being mad at them.. still.

idk i guess it opened my eyes, i totally lost my life for someone and that's what i didn't wanna do. i missed so many crazy events with my heffers and now when they remenice about it i'm so lost. i have no idea what they're talking about. i've become an outsider of the inside jokes.

super sad face

i caught up .. kinda. had a good night of poker and i'm looking forward? to the break. i need to not fall into this stupid hole that boys create. fuckkk that.

pin point

i am so fucking full
its way cold

*

i hate being fat

your borring

so today i was trying to get the girls to line up on the dots and as always they run to try and make it first. i just dont understand WHY the hell anybody cares about being first into the classroom but of course to a bunch of second graders it means the world to them. ANYwho, i asked them why they couldnt be like the middle school kids and not give a shit who goes first and they said that the middle school kids were borring and lame, thats why. and its so true. we all seem to lose a big part of us when we grow older. its like your mind isn't as creative or carefree when you older. you stop paying attention to detail like getting in the classroom first means getting the first pick at seats or books.

man i love kids.

sunday morning

morn


belmont shore x-mas shindig

hahah i would always remember looking forward to the parade to see super hott boys. but then this year i actually had one with me :]

weekend was legit. my roommates and steezen are seriously the only people i could do absolutly nothing with and still have a bomb ass time. its CRAZy.

ive decided to weigh myself today because i probably wont have time but this diet thing is going pretay smooth and im stoked, even tho i dont know if ive lost ANYthing ahhaha

I WANNA BE OFF MY PERIOD :[

stab city

"and even when you try to love,
its fake.
and even when you try to touch
it breaks."

last couple of days have been eh. we threw some 80s party for adam on thursday and i found it to be a disaster. idk but i was over it fast.

haha i got to meet stevens sisters yesterday, they're all really pretty and intimidating at the same time. they were really really nice tho.

its nice feeling like i have someone around that i can trust and not be so sketch about what point we're at and how the other person feel about you. i love the feeling of knowing and having communication. and i've finally after all this time found someone i like in every way. i took time and made sure everything about him was what i wanted instead of just taking the first heffer that came along.


i am growing olddddd.

fuck atkins!

shits kicking my ass. i want carbs SO bad!
but i gotta stick with it

i got a new pair of boots today :] my first ever. yenno, im more of a sneaker sandals girl oh yeah chuknow haha.

one more dayy! till hollyweird and jello and bomb ass breakfast AND steven fool! oh and that bitch holly.

FUCK WORK!

wish list

fresh ass month.

haha just gotta put this out there

for chistmas i would LOVE
_ a new headset for my xbeezy
_ someone to take me on a grocery shopping spree :]
_ PINKS! the day AFTER christmas
_ uggs? haha cos i dont wanna buy them [but plz dont be mad if i never wear them]
_ a new tat! haha
_ a netflicks account
_ my favorite movies ever on dvd [i lost them all!]
*stick it
*lords of dogtown
*cars [yes the cartoon haha]
_ perfume, surprise me!
_ c-los's new deck from gallery
_ a tirp to disneylanddddd
_ a freakin laptop charger! shittyy

& smoree shit i cant think of.
thanks yo =D